Dear Life,

Being the eternal optimist I am, I always have to look at the good things in everything.  During the break-up, I made us talk about things we WOULDN’T miss, so we wouldn’t focus on the “never gonna see each other, my heart is broken I want to sob like a baby” part :)  My obvious answer: I’ll never have to live in Detroit… NO let’s make that Michigan!  YEAH!  I cant think of very many more!  The fact that I thought this during this time might seem weird to most, but it was a way of comforting myself and him.

During a time like this, there’s not much people can do to comfort you.  Not that they don’t try.  I’ve gotten a lot of supportive emails, comments, phone calls, and hugs.  Andy and Zimm came downtown and took me out to sushi (which actually is pretty comforting… ahh sushi).  I bought ice cream (stereotypical girl break up comfort food)… but I’m not hungry since the break up, so it’s hard to even enjoy it.  You know it’s bad when you can’t enjoy chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream.  You lose your appetite and the ability to sleep soundly… which coincidentally, I never had, but it’s gotten worse. 

So what else can be a comfort???  TV and work DISTRACT me, but they don’t comfort me…. with the exception of Friends, which DOES comfort me, I love it.  A new Office tonight, yeah that helped me laugh.

So I looked up in the back of my bible the phrase: “What to read when you need comfort”.  CA-CHING!  Score!!  I need comfort!!!   But can I be honest?  The passages they give just have the word comfort a lot in them, they aren’t necassarily comforting.   So last night I got a little frustrated.  These passages aren’t comforting, Chocolate isn’t, emails aren’t (even though I love and appreciate them SO SO SO SO much), it’s just not bringing me peace and comfort when I’m so sad.

THEN, just as I was getting a little mad at god for not comforting me, I read this from Max Lucado’s Book 3:16.  He had just told a story about a son who basically ruined his dad’s career by being careless while driving and instead of yelling the dad hugged the kid and said, “son this is going to be okay.”  THEN this: 

“God is whispering the same to you.  Those are his arms you feel.  That is his voice you hear.  Believe him.  Allow the ONLY decision maker in the universe to comfort you.  Life at time appears to fall to pieces, seems irreparable.  BUT… it’s going to be okay.  How can you know?  Because God so loved the world.  And, since he has no needs, you cannot tire Him.  Since he is without age, you cannot lose Him.  Since he has no sin, you cannot corrupt Him.  If God can make a billion galaxies, can’t he make good out of our bad and sense out of our faltering lives?  OF COURSE HE CAN.  HE IS GOD!”

Guess what?  I feel comforted