Dear Life,

Sooo I was told by one of my friends that my blogs were the “saddest things I’ve ever read, especially since you’re such a happy person.”  (Hey Bri!  Thanks ).  Soooo I decided I’m going to be more happy.  And i honestly am happy.  The thing is, I’m always happy, I kinda feel like I HAVE to be.  I don’t like being sad or being mean, so naturally I CHOOSE to be happy.  Because I do think it’s something you choose, not something you are.  So if you’re sad and mean, you’re totally just choosing to be that way.  Which is sad in itself. 

SO happy thoughts!  I’m doing really well.  I REALLY AM.  I know it sounds like I’m doing awful, but I’m really not.  I laugh just as much, I hang out with my friends just as much, and I say just as many stupid off the wall things.  I mean, I’ve been through this before, and I’ve gotten through it fine and now we’re friends and it’s all good.  It was literally heart-wrenching and hideous for a long time, but now its ok.  And thinking about that gives me hope and makes me more OK.  haha I read back over my blogs and they are sad.  haha SORRY KIDS

I have to insert here that I just don’t like Sayesha from American Idol.  She’s good and all, but i just think she’s annoying and hope she gets kicked off… even though she did good.  I was SO happy today for this one reason: I got my new In Style magazine today!!!  The BEST gifts are magazine subscriptions in my opinion.  Because EVERY month I get SOOO excited it’s like getting a new gift!  Christmas every month!!  WEEEE!!

So Ruthie baby (my momma) is coming in this weekend!  YEAH!  And we’re going to see…. WICKED of course!  I love this musical SO much, almost as much as I love Cubs games (but not quite, GO CUBS GO!).  But seriously, if anyone ever wants to go to a Cubs game, let me know, I am ALWAYS down for going to Wrigley!!  So today I kept thinking about how much I love my pretty city.  I know I always say this, and it’s because I REALLY REALLY do!  I don’t know if I can still call it a “love affair” because I’m not dating anyone now.  BUT I guess you can only have an affair if you’re married, so I’m still gonna call it one because it sounds more fun.  My new favorite author, Jen Lancaster, at the end of her book talked about why she loved Chicago and I LOVED how she put it :
” I realize Chicago is  great city not because it’s glamorous, but because it’s REAL… People come from all over the world to live here, and each of them firs right in without missing a step.  The beauty of this city is not that it’s exclusive, but that’s it’s inclusive.”

I love this city and I love that I live here.  I still want to travel and live in Italy for a while, but probably not as soon as August, haha which I realized was quite sudden.  Plus I just really love it here so much.  I almost don’t have any idea why anyone would want to live anywhere else.  Plus we have the Cubs!  (screw the white sox!  Boo south side!)  And DA BEARS.  And you can get fat here if you want and no one will even blink, I mean think of DA BEARS Saturday night live skit… try and say that about Los Angeles or even NYC, you can’t!!  So thanks Chicago, you’re awesome. 

I actually went on a nice little walk tonight with my roommate up to Lincoln Square (which made me pose this question about 10 times… “why don’t we hang out here more often it is SO cute?!?!”  IT IS!).  It was GLORIOUS out tonight and we got cold stone ice cream!  yay!  But it was so nice and so pretty and I love Chicago this time of year!!  And I am GOING to hang out in Lincoln Square more cause it’s SO nice!!

I’d also like to say I’ve fallen in love again.  It was quite sudden.  I should also mention at this point I’ve never met this man.  But that doesn’t make my love any less real.  His name is Matt and he is on beauty and the geek.  He has the thickest glasses I’ve ever seen in my life that they didn’t remove in the makeover (which I LOVED!!).  He is the SWEETEST angel.  I mean he loves to snuggle, he’s so adorably dweeby I want to die.  But some hoe is getting all up on him in this next episode and I am NOT HAVING IT!  He is MINE

Ok more wonderful book reviews:

Bright Lights, Big Ass  by: Jen Lancaster A+

I loved this one too, of course.  This lady is hysterical.  Her books are just her thoughts basically and what happens in her life, which is so funny because she is so funny.  I can’t wait to meet her!  I’m already planning an outfit, THAT is how excited I am :)   I also insisted on reading at lest 4 parts of her book out loud to my roommate and I was laughing so hard it took me about 10 minutes to read 2 pages.  Let’s just say it included the phrase “reach around” and her mom.  Classic.

A Thousand Splendid Suns By: Khaled Hosseini A+

Even better than The Kite Runner.  I loved it so much.  I can’t even begin to think about it or I will cry.  I think I actually screamed out loud during this book and cried when something happened because I felt their pain THAT much!!  This time the story is of two woman and how they very unlikely become the greatest of friends in such an awful horrendous situation.  Read it now.

Pillars of the Earth- Ken Follett- A

I know, I know this was in Oprah’s book club which makes some people hate on it.  But let’s face the facts people, it’s an EXCELLENT book.  It’s SO wonderfully long (I LOVE long books because I can’t EVER read enough and I get so attached to the characters I want to read about them for days, but I usually finish books in like one day, but this one took me about 4 days!  Woo-hoo!).  There’s about 1.000 characters in it and you don’t have ANY idea what the prologue is about until the very end!  I was confused for a little bit because it’s written about a time period a long time ago (forget the exact time period, sorry).  But it is very good!  I should also say that one night I decided to “read just for a little bit before bed”  2 things you must know about me immediately are: 1.  I don’t sleep well AT all…. EVER.  2.  Sleeping does not make me tired IN THE LEAST!…. ok so moving on.  I started to read at about 11:30, then what i thought was a little while later, I checked the clock.  It was 5:50 AM.  And I didn’t even realize I’d been reading the book for 6 hours.  THAT is how awesome this book is!

Wicked by Gregory Maguire: C

Go see the musical instead, it’s about 9,000 times better.  That being said let’s talk about the book.  It starts out SOOOOOO slow.  I literally had to FORCE myself to read it.  Maguire writes really intensely and really raw.  There’s A LOT of sex (not romance book sex, like weird sex no one wants to think about EVER) in this book… which is funny b/c the musical is SO family friendly and awesome.  Also it was confusing.  I read one chapter of the book seriously 5 times and was so frustrated bc I didn’t get it still, so I continued reading.  But at the end, I did like it OK.  I didn’t love it but it helped me understand the characters better when I saw the musical.  Don’t read it unless you don’t have anything else to read and have time to read each chapter twice.  It took me like 3 weeks to read it, and it usually never takes me more than 2 days to read a book… so yeah not that great, but not awful either.

The Devil Wears Prada by: Lauren Weisberger: A

So great.  SOOOO much better than the movie (as books usually are).  but I do have to say the movie was pretty good, but the book is still SOOO much better.  They go into MUCH more depth about her dive into this fashion assistant world and in the movie they completely cut out her family and Lily!  I mean they’re in a few scenes but they are HUGE aspects in the book.  Plus the ending in the book is PERFECT.  I mean when it ended I thought… wow what a perfect ending, I love it.  The ending to the movie was OK.  But if you like to read books that are pretty easy reads but still have a cute moral to it, then go for it.  It’s not for everyone.  Artie and Meade will not appreciate this.  Liz you will! 

Ok well I hope I’m being happier for everyone :)  I really am doing well and moving on pretty well.  I also want to see Baby’s Momma, The sarah marshall movie, and made of honor.  So if anyone will be in the Chicagoland area and wants to see one of these call me!  Or else I’ll just read more books!